Weight, BMI, and Other Really Irrelevant Things

Here’s the thing: I’ve spent way too long caring about the number on the scale and the arbitrary calculation of my height-to-weight ratio. Not caring about the number on the scale is so foreign to me. For the past seven years, I’ve weighed myself multiple times a day, changing my intake (usually decreasing it) to…

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Aka Idina Menzel belting Seasons of Love  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ In daylights,  in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee-- in inches, in miles, In laughter, in strife-- in five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes-- how do you measure a year in the life? Long time no blog and all that jazz because to be honest, I’ve…

New URL, Who Dis?

e to (Mom, Dad- that’s a reference to a popular song called “New Phone, Who Dis.” I’m just trying to be relatable) Okay but really, new blog/ new URL/ new things are happening!! In the name of spring cleaning for sure, but also just because things are changing. I no longer feel connected to the…

#BoycottTheBefore: the danger of before/after pictures in eating disorder recovery

I am sick of seeing before and after pictures. I am sick of people in recovery quantifying their progress by placing a picture of them at a low weight compared to a healthy weight and stating that THAT is where the work happened. Because it’s not. Because as hard as gaining the weight is, especially…

you don’t need to make your new year’s resolution about shrinking yourself.

 I didn’t want to blog about New Year’s Resolutions because I hate them. And also because blogs about resolutions are cliche and dumb. But mostly because resolutions are full of promises of weight loss and eating “healthy” and making yourself smaller. But here I am. Because I cannot resist fighting back against diet culture and…

skating & life & leaning into all of it

Confession: I hadn’t put on skates between the ages of 10 and 18, until last year- and now I can’t go a few days without lacing them up and hitting the ice. As in, I stepped on the ice for a skills session last year and didn’t let go of the wall until halfway through…

thank you, world (+ theresa)

Hi friends- long time, no blog! School/skating/life have been so busy but I knew I wanted to write about thanksgiving, so I’m back! I have a million and four things to be thankful for, my recovery + health being on the top of that list. Having the opportunity to go to treatment and kick my eating…

a season of repenting & growing

L’shana tova- happy new year! To be honest, I’m not big on going to synagogue. I can read Hebrew but I don’t know what it means. I spent years at hebrew school and shabbat and high holiday services, but now that no one forces me to go at college, I’m definitely less involved. This year,…

when things really, really suck

I was first diagnosed with an eating disorder my junior year of high school, after almost 4 years of fighting it. Like everything else I’ve done in my life, I thought I could take it head on. I thought it would be me eating meals and gaining the weight back and then everything would be…

Happy Graduation (from treatment) To Me!!

Hello world!!! After 17 weeks, residential, day treatment, and intensive outpatient, over 400 meals and snacks, groups and therapy and pep talks from some of the most incredible people I’ve ever met, and a LOT of tears later, I am FINALLY graduating from treatment today!!!! First things first: what does this mean? Unfortunately, it doesn’t…